Limitless

Bohoo, i have so much assignment that i feel like just not doing some of them, bummer. Especially with group assignments, meetings are so unproductive and due to my higher demands on quality i have to do the job of 3 members, i don't think i can take this much longer....bah!

Anyway, i manage (still) to catch the movie limitless as felt the movie was pretty awesome, especially the concept. Without much spoilers, its basically about a pill that give the user the potential of using 100% of their brain, become efficient, organized and resourceful. I guess it portraits the fact that people could not access the 100% potential of their brain capacity and those who can, would abuse it and be at the top of the ladder. What i enjoyed about the movie was that it reflects some of the current ills of the society. People, even with their mere 10/20% brain capacity, never fully utilize them. They are sluggish, comfort at their own zone and reluctant to reach out for the better. I actually do believe that is why we are only be able to access such little capacity of our brain - because we don't even exercise what is given to us in the first place! What a waste!

Given the volley of assignments, and other troubles that i face recently, i did feel really down and lost at times. Especially uncertainties with the future which i have little control over, i really hate them!! I guess after all,



Well, this will be my friendly reminder for the week to come, and hopefully, for anyone that feel down, cheer up ! ^^




Well, i actually do have a lot to blog about but too much on my hands to put up a post properly, but i hope i can do so soon. And to tell the truth, i think my brain needs more capacity, anybody have a limitless pill? =p

The Reason...

Here i am, 8.30am on a Sunday, in the Australian School of Business Building.It's practically empty, with light not even turned-on. And i found a my spot, sat down and wondered.... what the heck am i doing here.

Gosh, people's been calling me a nerd half my life, and then suddenly i realised, i am becoming one now. Damn... and for what?

Well, shortsightedly, i'm here for my quiz tmr which i have no clue about its content and i am pretty sure i will not have it until tmr either. But in the bigger picture, i'm really in a lost. WHY AM I HERE...?

I could very well back in Malaysia, studying a far easier course and scoring it twice as easy. I could be appreciated with my results and get a job in no time, maybe even one with a good positions. I could have my parents taking care of my everyday meal, and chores, even have a car to drive around. I would have friends, that i can talk to, have fun with and even laugh our hearts out. With the contacts i have at home, i have opportunities, to do whatever form of small business i want. And humbly, with my skills, i believe i can make it up the ranks. In essence, i will be in my comfort zone.

But yet, i choose a path less traveled. Here, i study a crazy course, where your results does not seem reflect your talent or your effort, but in the difficulty in which the paper is set. I spent most my time studying, just so that i can walk in the exam hall, not with confidence, but with a little less fear. I need to care for my 3 meals and the numerous daily chores of daily life. I don't have close friends that i can talk my heart out to. I wake up alone and go to sleep just the same. I don't have a job and struggle to find one. I know no contacts, and the currency here is so high that my savings had become trivial. With my skills, i am consider mediocre at best. In essence, i am either crazy, suicidal, or an idiot.

And the funniest thing is, people envy me. Don't ask me how, don't ask me why, but the grass is always greener on the other side. I envy them too.

Is it glory and fame that i seek? To prove myself better than anyone else back home? Is it wealth and success that i seek, because no one guarantees it, even if i am here.Is it happiness in life that i seek? But it sure seem much joyful back home with my group of friends.

Deep down inside, i knew i made this choice, and i knew i wanted it. Even with a million reasons that says i'm nothing but a fool, i will keep walking.



Taking the path less traveled, is less glamorous than it seems, and it's not always the most rewarding one. But i want a change, i want challenge and i want to see how far i can go. I believe everyone is gifted in their own unique way. And i don't want to live in a mediocracy that will bury my potential. I want a path that will squeeze every soul and strength out of me, and keep squeezing. Even if it kills me one day, and left me with nothing but a title of idiocy. It's worth it, because, i would have lived a life, without regret. =p



Now, back to my studies =/