All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France
It’s been awhile, since I last wrote. Or should I put it ‘he’ last wrote? Because he is he and he is gone. Things have changed and so have I. And to do that, I have to let go of my past self. He couldn’t have taken any of this anyway and it is about time, for something better, something colder and something harder, something more serious.
I’ve chose the road less taken. Will it lead me to where I want to go? Will it lead me to a oasis, a paradise on earth the heavenly Avalon? I do not know.
But without regrets I will continue walking, no matter what.
Far have I traveled, beyond what I perceive was the end of the world. I was smaller than I think. The empty cup was more filled than he wanted to be. And against this new abyss, he learned a little more from the countless falls. The little empty cup is once again a little more empty now. But far from reaching the bottom, he knew it.
Facing countless enemies and challenges, he tried to defeat them all but realize he has lost. Badly. But not to anyone greater, stronger or wiser. But to himself. And it is there he realize, all it takes is defeat himself, because he is the only enemy. He is the devil, and everything that stands in his way, the only thing that actually matters. Knowing one’s greatest weakness is to grow stronger already. But that is not enough, not anymore.
Where has the silent wanderer go? Touched by the warmth of loving-ness and faith, his cold heart melted, he grew soft, where he originally was. But to be the killer he once was again, he has to once again, steel his heart, lock his emotions and reignite his burning flame. It is easy now, since cold spikes have shattered within, the warmth is lost replaced only by an emptiness, which must be filled. The wound may never heal, but it is a great opportunity, to bring the killer back again. It was his greatest strength that is his greatest weakness, that hurt him the most, that killed part of him. I wonder if he will ever recover from this, or if this is the best cure for his broken soul.
6.3.10
The warm morning shower
In a cold winter morning, it is actually pretty darn hard to wake up. And the best thing to do would be - to jump into a hot shower!
The feeling is unexplainable by words. At least with my standard of vocab. But it's definitely comfortable. With hot water gushing down from head to toe, the warmth it bring to my cold hands and legs and the heat that circulates my blood, jump-starting me to consciousness. It's like being reborn!
But there's a trick. There always be. For it was told 'If something is too good to be true, It probably is'.
Just like life itself and the many events that manifest in it. It's easy to get in, easier to stay in, but difficult to get out!
Although conscious, under the great comfort of heat and warmth, adding to the threat of stale shivers and unlimited coldness out there. I refuse to go out. There are some point of time that i thought i could stay in the shower forever. But just like any dream, it needs to be awaken. Sooner or later. Staying in the water for too long, my skin will start to blister or even before that, the hot water may very well run out.
So with bravery in my heart, steel my mind and walk out of the hot shower on a cold winter morning. Having faith that,
tomorrow,
There will be another shower. =p
And a better one. xD
The feeling is unexplainable by words. At least with my standard of vocab. But it's definitely comfortable. With hot water gushing down from head to toe, the warmth it bring to my cold hands and legs and the heat that circulates my blood, jump-starting me to consciousness. It's like being reborn!
But there's a trick. There always be. For it was told 'If something is too good to be true, It probably is'.
Just like life itself and the many events that manifest in it. It's easy to get in, easier to stay in, but difficult to get out!
Although conscious, under the great comfort of heat and warmth, adding to the threat of stale shivers and unlimited coldness out there. I refuse to go out. There are some point of time that i thought i could stay in the shower forever. But just like any dream, it needs to be awaken. Sooner or later. Staying in the water for too long, my skin will start to blister or even before that, the hot water may very well run out.
So with bravery in my heart, steel my mind and walk out of the hot shower on a cold winter morning. Having faith that,
tomorrow,
There will be another shower. =p
And a better one. xD
7.2.10
Beginning of HOPE
HOPE is born!
What is HOPE?
It is a fund, namely 'High Opportunity Private Equity' Fund. Therefore HOPE Fund. Created and managed by me and officially launched today.
From my 1 year in Australia, i was able to made some study and insight into the Australian Equity Market and at the meantime profit a little from it. I had always been aspiring to be a portfolio manager and manage a fund by myself. So to start off, i made a courageous decision this year. To start a small, private equity fund and manage it myself. I have been reluctant to do so, much more to advertise or announce it here but i know i have to. Because by doing so, i made it serious, i made it real. There will no longer be any excuse for me to procrastinate or to postpone the launching of this fund anymore.
It is officially opened now and it will be closed by 1st March 2010. I will not post much details here because I'm not very interested in advertising or selling this fund. It is somewhat just a test of my capabilities before i decide that if this is a path i will and should pursue. This is also to inform those who believe in me or are seeking a opportunity to get involve. So for those who are really interested, leave a message here or in my facebook and i will send a copy of the details to you.
So now you all know what i was being busy the whole time eh?
What is HOPE?
It is a fund, namely 'High Opportunity Private Equity' Fund. Therefore HOPE Fund. Created and managed by me and officially launched today.
From my 1 year in Australia, i was able to made some study and insight into the Australian Equity Market and at the meantime profit a little from it. I had always been aspiring to be a portfolio manager and manage a fund by myself. So to start off, i made a courageous decision this year. To start a small, private equity fund and manage it myself. I have been reluctant to do so, much more to advertise or announce it here but i know i have to. Because by doing so, i made it serious, i made it real. There will no longer be any excuse for me to procrastinate or to postpone the launching of this fund anymore.
It is officially opened now and it will be closed by 1st March 2010. I will not post much details here because I'm not very interested in advertising or selling this fund. It is somewhat just a test of my capabilities before i decide that if this is a path i will and should pursue. This is also to inform those who believe in me or are seeking a opportunity to get involve. So for those who are really interested, leave a message here or in my facebook and i will send a copy of the details to you.
So now you all know what i was being busy the whole time eh?
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